3 weeks to GO!

I have heard it said more than once that it takes three weeks of doing something to form a habit.  Well, today is day one.  When I lost all the weight before I became a little bit of an addict...to the gym, to working out.  I discovered I LOVED it.   But, over the last year, I have completely fallen off the wagon.  I hate the time it takes out of my day.  But I know that I need it.  It improves my mood, my energy level, my focus, and just a myriad of other things.  Plus, at the end of the day, it's a fact...I still LOVE it.  I had originally decided that I would wait till I lost 20 pounds to go back since my arches are falling and my feet have been absolutely killing me.  The more I thought about that though, the more I knew I could do it before that.  Instead of using my favorite, "go-to machine", the AMT(Advanced Motion Trainer), which is pictured here,

I decided the recumbent bike would be my best option until I lose enough weight that my feet are better.  So, today I went to the gym, I warmed up for five minutes on the AMT and then I did another 30 on the bike.  It was a great workout and I remembered how much I love to do it!  So....here's to day ONE!  My goal is to set a new habit or rather reclaim my old one. You have to start somewhere!

A 2, an 8, and a 7

What do these numbers mean to me?  They mean that I am losing my battle.  That I am giving up on myself, and, in some ways, my family.  They mean that I cry when I look at what I've become.  My clothes are chronically uncomfortable. 287 is what I weighed on January 18, 2012.  I know this is my Goliath and I need to do a better job of fighting it, but that doesn't make it easier.  Last time I lost all the weight I know I did not do it the right way.  Exercising was a good thing to add and also I did eat a lot better....when I ate.  The problem was I didn't do very much of that.  I starved myself. A lot.  That, I think, in large part is a big reason why I never reached my "goal weight" and also that I am back here again.  Although I don't weigh 354 like I did I am fast on my way back there.  Not anymore.  This time I'm doing things right.  NO skipping meals and NO starving.

What do you say to that 287?